Sometimes your thoughts and feelings never come out the way they should. It takes someone who has been in your situation to help you understand that what you are going through is completely normal. It takes alot for two people to decide whats best for them, but once they know, it doesn't change.
I have a friend that had a baby almost a year ago. We haven't always been friends. But sometimes the things she says and how she says it is exactly what I, at times, can't find the right words for. She is a beautiful inside and out. She helped me see that somethings are normal to think and that when people ask you to explain you really can't. Some feelings that you may have don't have words to explain them...not because you don't know how, but because you would never have felt anything like it unless you have been there.
Its nice to not have everyone you know trying to push you to do things with your so called "situation". Things happen for a reason. Blessings come in all sorts of ways, forms, and packages. You may have one that you are scared of just because you are going through so much at the time. I can see that with her. I can now see plainly that I am not any different than any other 19 year old Momma. I am protective because I care. I am strong, because I have to be. I am emotional, because its not easy. I am loving, becuase thats who I am. I have tough skin because I have been through alot...and learned from every bit of it. I do not let people push me around because I know better than that.
I may not be perfect, but I have never tried to be. I just see now that there is nothing wrong with my feelings, emotions, or expressions from any of the things that I have gone through/am going through. To her, I have to thank for clearing up these things. <3
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